Please Kill Me If It Satisfies You
We have a character (Alice) who has done something terrible to another character (Bob). Perhaps she made a mistake
, had no control over her actions
or it's something she did before a Heel-Face Turn
. Anyway, she regrets it now. Very much.
Actually, she regrets it enough to offer Bob her life to make up for her mistake or action. We have two variants now:
- She truly wants to be killed, and thinks Bob is the one who should do it.
- She simply doesn't care if she's killed or not. She's ready to accept Bob's judgement on this, no matter the result.
Similar but distinct from several tropes, as follows. If Alice doesn't want to be killed, but rather to make up for her mistakes by fighting for the good, she's an Atoner
. If she's trusting Bob not to kill her
, but nonetheless sets up a situation that would allow him to do so, it's Kill Me Now or Forever Stay Your Hand
. If she indeed wants to die, but decides to die fighting, she's a Death Seeker
; if she's incapable of killing herself and wants someone she trusts to do it, it's I Cannot Self-Terminate
. If she is a villain trying to invoke If You Kill Him, You Will Be Just Like Him
, it's Strike Me Down with All of Your Hatred
, and if she's only daring Bob because she doesn't believe he'll be able to do it, it's You Wouldn't Shoot Me
It's rare for this to actually result in Bob killing Alice. Heroic characters will be just too forgiving or pacifistic, while less upstanding characters are likely to respond with "You're Not Worth Killing
" or "I'd rather keep watching you suffer
Also compare Redemption Equals Death
. A nonlethal variant combines Hit Me, Dammit!
(for the character inviting the attack) and My Fist Forgives You
(for the attacker).
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Anime and Manga
- In Mobile Suit Gundam 00, Lockon finds out that his teammate Setsuna was part of the group of terrorists that planted a bomb that killed Lockon's parents and sister - this was done while Setsuna was a brainwashed Child Soldier. Lockon pulls his gun on Setsuna, who just stands there, because he's kind of a Death Seeker out of guilt for his past actions. Eventually, Lockon pulls himself together and doesn't shoot him.
- In Mobile Suit Gundam Wing, Heero Yuy felt so guilty for causing the death of Marshal Noventa that he went up to both Noventa's wife (offscreen) and granddaughter Sylvia (onscreen) and asked each of them to kill him. Neither did so, obviously, and Sylvia even called him a coward for that.
- Similarly, towards the end of the series Lady Une (post merging of her "Lady" and "Saint" selves) handed Relena Darlian-Peacecraft a gun and asked her to kill her as punishment for having murdered Relena's adoptive father. What happened? Relena refuses to do it, and Une is brought to tears.
- Kurt Godel in Mahou Sensei Negima! says this to Negi when he reveals that the Megalomesembrian senate (who he's apart of) was responsible for the destruction of Negi's Doomed Hometown (though there's no evidence that Godel himself was involved).
- Rukia Kuchiki from Bleach deals with this a lot. Her guilt over killing her mentor, Kaien Shiba, prompts her to be a Death Seeker for much of the opening story (it's later specifically stated to be the reason she completely lost her powers in the beginning instead of only half). Throughout the entire story, because of her remorse, she's willing to allow herself to be killed by the Correction Forces, Ganju Shiba, and Kaien Shiba himself, after Demonic Possession.
- In the final episode of Aldnoah.Zero, Slaine becomes extremely repentant for his actions during the war and, after Inaho captures him at gunpoint, Slaine taps his forehead, inviting him to kill him. Inaho refuses, having been told by Asseylum to "save" Slaine, and the VERS pilot is thus taken into custody.
- Ritsuko Akagi from Neon Genesis Evangelion begs her friend Misato Katsuragi to kill her after revealing to her and Shinji the tank with the Rei clones, then destroying it and said clones. Misato refuses to do so, and Ritsuko is left a sobbing wreck on the floor..
- In Battle Royale (novel and manga), after Yoshimi learns that Yoji intends to kill her, Yoshimi gives up and tells Yoji that he can shoot her. Instead, Yoji is overcome by emotion and does not shoot her, throwing away the gun in regret.
- And then Mitsuko picks up the gun and shoots both of them.
- Mireille Bouquet in Noir promises to kill her partner Kirika Yuumura after they discover the truth behind their connection. When they do, however, she cannot do it, despite a tearful Kirika begging for her to because said connection actually involved Kirika's murder of Mireille's family. And when Kirika was no older than six, even!.
- InuYasha: After Naraku eggs Sango into trying to kill Rin to save Miroku's life, Sango gives her life to Sesshoumaru for her crime. Sesshoumaru may have been angry with her but just seems to forgive her, especially after she gives Rin her gas mask as an apology.
- In the Firefly fanfic Forward, River confronts Colonel Dannet, her former combat instructor at the Academy. He is so deeply distraught at what he and the Academy did to her and the other children there that he is willing to let her kill him in revenge. She is instead confused as to why she doesn't want to kill him, and forgives him when she realizes that it is because he thinks of her as a human and not a weapon.
- Ventus in Broken Heroes invokes this his first stinkin' moment. Although Riku refuses his plead to kill him, even though Ventus destroyed his home when Vanitas took over, Sora has a much different perspective. So Ven becomes an Atoner, and is implied to be a Death Seeker. He gets that wish, and gets murdered by Saïx after being around for 18 chapters.
- In The Prayer Warriors, one of Socrates' followers asks this of Jason after she is captured. He says that he will not kill her because doing so would be a sin (and this is immediately after he killed Socrates), and decides to keep her alive as his slave.
- Rosario Vampire: Brightest Darkness: As part of his Dark and Troubled Past, Dark was forced by his summoner/former master to kill numerous snow women. When he meets Mizore's mother in Act II after saving her from execution at the hands of Fairy Tale, he promptly offers up his life to her in penance, but since he saved them, Tsurara lets him live, instead thanking him for his aid.
- In Gensokyo 20XXV, we have this Reimu, who, after enough of Baka's complaining, challenges him to kill her, that she has little else to lose. This along with the rest of speech had effect of shutting him up for awhile.
Reimu:If you blame me for your misery, then, fine, end it, end it where it is! Do it! You have nothing left to lose from putting an end to a little girl.
- Later on, we also have this with Yukari, a Broken Bird, says this in response to Chen's question over her decisions.
Yukari:[...] If you're angry at me, fine, be angry, call me a bitch while your at it, however, I can only hope you'd forgive me for the choices I've made. If you can't, then end my life, act as you see fit, if you think it'll satisfy you.
- Serenity: After her battle programming is activated at the Maidenhead bar, River suggests to her brother that he should kill her rather than risk her hurting the crew. His response is to insist she never, ever think like that.
- In Diamond Chariot, the head of a ninja clan offers Fandorin a chance to kill him to take revenge for his friends whom the ninjas slaughtered earlier. He doesn't technically have to atone for this, of course (since he is a ninja, after all), but he needs Fandorin's trust.
- In Caleb Williams, Caleb tells Falkland he can "Do with me any thing you will. Kill me if you please..."
- In the last chapter of The NeverEnding Story when Bastian puts down AURYN in front of Atreyu (though he isn't actually offering his life; "only" his sanity).
- According to White Fang, this is what it means for a dog to let a human hold it.
- In The Silver Chair, it's recounted that when King Caspian's son Rilian first disappeared, Caspian's friend Drinian felt personally responsible, because he'd never stopped Rilian from visiting the Lady of the Green Kirtle who eventually turned out to be a witch and enchanted and abducted him. He went straight to Caspian and confessed this, and when Caspian picked up an axe as if to kill him, he made no attempt to resist. Caspian changed his mind, dropping the axe and hugging Drinian as he said, "I have lost my Queen, and my son. Shall I lose my friend as well?"
- Terra from Teen Titans commands Beast Boy to "destroy" her after realizing what she's done.
- When Robin was unwillingly made Slade's apprentice behind his friends' backs, Starfire ends a standoff between her and Robin like this. She states she doesn't want to live in a world where Robin is truly evil and offers no resistance if Robin really wants to kill her.
- In the first Bugs Bunny cartoon A Wild Hare, Bugs does this with Elmer but only as the set-up for one his faux death scenes.
- In the ThunderCats (2011) episode "The Pit", this is how Lion-O gains Pumyra's trust after she was Made a Slave.
- In an episode of Courage the Cowardly Dog, when a Wish-granting Tree makes Eustace incredibly jealous of it serving Muriel and Courage, he unintentionally wishes that it would make Muriel understand, only for Muriel to become incredibly sick. When Courage temporarily leaves the tree alone, Eustace has it all to himself with the intention of cutting it down. The tree then comes to life to question Eustace's desire for attention, but Eustace still cuts it down. Fortunately despite that the tree is gone, it manages to make the cure for Muriel to get better, while Eustace contracts her sickness as well.