A non-fighter -- call her Alice -- gets the drop on a bad guy who is threatening her or another sympathetic character. The bad guy is usually [[YouWouldntShootMe undeterred since they doubt the Alice could actually do it]] and will often try to talk her down or simply step in and [[DefensiveFailure take the gun away]]. But she holds fast, pulls the trigger, and shoots.

Immediately afterwards, we see the emotional weight of what's just happened land on Alice like a ton of bricks. Perhaps a horrified or sickened expression settles on her face. She may go into a full HeroicBSOD, dropping the gun and bursting into tears. Sometimes she collapses. Alternatively, she doesn't react much but she freezes in shock, neither moving nor lowering her weapon until someone more battle-hardened comes over and takes it out of her trembling hand. Sometimes that other is [[SubvertedTrope the bad guy themselves]], who was [[OnlyAFleshWound merely wounded]] and is ready for Round 2.

The usual meaning of this trope is to signify that Alice has never shot anyone before (perhaps has never even held a gun before) and is emotionally unprepared for the aftermath. While either gender can react this way, it is more likely to show on female characters, who may act [[HystericalWoman shaky and hysterical]] even before the act. Where a man could look down the barrel and coldly say "IllKillYou", a woman will point the gun with a hand quivering in rage/fear and scream "I'LL KILL YOU!" with tears running down her face.

[[TruthInTelevision There is a real phenomenon, occasionally called "Killer's Remorse", that can accompany the first kill of someone not trained against it, punctuated by tears, shakes, and occasional vomiting]]. This is generally considered a healthy reaction, as taking a life is supposed to be a difficult and turbulent stigma to overcome, i.e. unpleasant in every sense of the word. Soldiers actively train to prevent this from happening, while [[TheSociopath sociopaths and psychopaths]] do not experience it at all. Most police services require mandatory counselling for officers who have to take a life. And it's also an issue that impacts civilians forced to kill to defend themselves. Of course, once that initial unpleasant experience has passed, ItGetsEasier might apply. Which, depending on the circumstances, can be worrisome. (However, ItNeverGetsAnyEasier may also apply, if the person is not in a line of duty that involves multiple kills.) Killer's remorse is also known to impact hunters who kill game for the first time, with ItGetsEasier usually expected to follow, though some people hang up their rifles and swear never to do it again.)

!!'''As a DeathTrope, all Spoilers will be unmarked ahead. Beware.'''


[[folder:Anime And Manga]]
* ''Manga/BattleRoyale'': Noriko Nakagawa bursts into tears when she shoots Kazuo Kiriyama, even though he had slaughtered thirteen people previously.
* In ''Manga/HighschoolOfTheDead'', Saya Takagi breaks down for a moment after killing her first zombie.
* ''Manga/AttackOnTitan'': [[spoiler: As the Survey Corps are on the run from the Military Police after the failed attempt to rescue Eren and Historia, one woman in the Central 1st Brigade mangers to get Jean at gunpoint. Armin shoots her in the nick of time, saving Jean's life, but after he gets back to their hideout, he runs outside, vomits in the dirt, and tearfully asks Mikasa if killing for the first time was just as hard on ''her''.]]
* Happens to Light in ''Manga/DeathNote''. After the reality that he's just killed two people sets in, he {{Stress Vomit}}s in an alleyway. In the manga, this breakdown is explored in greater detail; he winds up not eating or sleeping for a week. ItGetsEasier, though.
** Also happens to Taro in the {{Pilot}} [[Manga/DeathNotePilot chapter]].
* In ''Manga/TokyoGhoul [[{{Prequel}} Jack]]'', Taishi Fura collapses and weeps hysterically after killing [[spoiler: Minami]]/Lantern in self-defense. In '':Re'', an adult Fura recalls this experience and advises Shirazu that his struggle with his first major kill is not only normal, but a sign that he's in better shape mentally than anyone that ''doesn't'' feel distressed over killing.

[[folder:Comic Books]]
* ''ComicBook/DCTheNewFrontier'': Shooting a North Korean is an extremely traumatic experience for fighter pilot [[Franchise/GreenLantern Hal Jordan]], who blames himself for not remembering how to say in Korean that the war was already over.
* In early 1980s, Mark Gruenwald tried to do this with ''ComicBook/CaptainAmerica'', of all characters. When a HYDRA agent is unwittingly killed by his own bullet ricocheting off of Cap's shield, Cap spends the next three issues tearfully wringing his hands over it, even going so far as to say that he has never taken a life ''even in his capacity as a soldier in UsefulNotes/WorldWarII'' and that if he did, ''[[IfYouKillHimYouWillBeJustLikeHim he would be no better than the Nazis]]''. This story ended up CanonDiscontinuity pretty quickly, and since then Cap has been consistently written to hold life sacred and not take killing lightly, but willing to do so if it needs to be done, and without blubbering about it.

* In ''Fanfic/ProjectDelta'' Jane is forced to give the few other surviving test subjects a MercyKill. She later has a tattoo with [[TheNameless their numbers]] made.

* Seen in the Creator/JohnWayne movie, ''Film/RioLobo''. Amelita (Sherry Lansing) shoots a corrupt sheriff repeatedly (and [[PreMortemOneLiner very coldly]]), then breaks down sobbing afterwards, making the point that enduring physical pain and overcoming the emotional trauma of killing someone are very different things.
* ''Film/{{Shooter}}''. Kate Mara repeatedly shoots Elias Koteas, who is implied to have raped her earlier. Koteas' character was able to get the drop on her ''after'' she blew his mook away with a sawed-off shotgun--and [[PostVictoryCollapse went into shock over it.]]
* ''Film/{{The Eye of the Needle}}'' (1981) ends with Kate Nelligan shooting Donald Sutherland (a Nazi spy who became her secret lover, only to murder her crippled husband and threaten the life of her young son when his cover was blown) to prevent him rowing out to a U-Boat with info about the impending D-Day landings. "I had to do it," she sobs, when reinforcements finally arrive (in a helicopter).
* In ''Film/TheGetaway'' (1972) , Ali [=McGraw=] stares aghast after emptying a Colt Model 1903 into the BigBad. There are factors influencing her emotions: she had been sleeping with him, and was supposed to have killed her husband.
* The Creator/JeanClaudeVanDamme movie ''Film/HardTarget'' contains something of an aversion to this trope: Yancy Butler shoots one of the bad guy's henchmen and is admonished by Uncle Douvee (Wilford Brimley) for doing a man's work. He attempts to take the gun off her but she takes it back and walks grimly away.
* In ''Film/{{Legion}}'' there's a gender-flipped subversion. Jeep desperately ''wants'' to be able to shoot the bad guy because he wants to protect the girl. But he can't. He ends up in the rest room sobbing and puking just from coming that close to firing a gun at someone.
* In ''Film/RideLonesome'', Karen Steele's DeterminedWidow character points a rifle at the protagonists and tries to shoot, but Randolph Carter takes the weapon from her and convinces her that they're on her side.
* In the Rob Zombie version of ''Film/{{Halloween 2007}}'', Laurie shoots Michael in the face, then proceeds to scream like a crazy person over his body for a really long time.
* In ''Film/BladeRunner'', Rachel is very shaken after shooting Leon off Deckard.
* In ''Film/{{Unforgiven}}'', the Schofield Kid breaks down crying (in a somewhat delayed reaction) after killing Quick Mike while the [[CampingACrapper latter was using the outhouse]]. While he talks tough about his reputation as a stone-cold killer, this is actually his very first kill.
* Inverted in indie Western ''Film/{{Shroud}}'': the heroine is understandably panicky when she is attacked and threatened with rape by a cowboy--but after she manages to snatch his gun from its holster, [[CrowningMomentOfAwesome she grows visibly calmer with each shot as she empties the gun into him.]]
* In ''Film/{{Bound 1996}}'', the feminine Violet has Caesar at gunpoint but seems reluctant to shoot him. He tries to talk her down in a most patronizing manner, telling her that she does not have the resolve nor the will to fire the gun. Violet does fire, but not before delivering a calm and collected PreMortemOneLiner.
* Harry in ''Film/KissKissBangBang'' breaks down after shooting a goon.
* In ''Film/ManOfSteel'', Clark, who has spent the entire movie trying to save everyone, breaks down crying after [[spoiler:he is forced to directly kill General Zod to keep him from murdering a terrified family]]. It's treated not as a [[ARealManIsAKiller rite of passage]] but a [[SadisticChoice terribly traumatic choice]] that forced him to do something strongly against [[TechnicalPacifist his]] [[ThouShaltNotKill nature]].
* Veronica shoots [[spoiler:Seth/Brundlefly]], by his own request, to put him out of his misery at the end of ''Film/TheFly1986''. First blam, then bawl.
* In ''Film/SnowWhiteAndTheHuntsman'', Snow White sheds tears after killing [[BigBad Ravenna]], despite having known she would have to do so and having prepared for it to a degree. The fact that she felt sorrow rather than hatred for Ravenna may have contributed.
* In ''Film/KingsmanTheSecretService'', after shooting [[spoiler:Galahad]] [[BoomHeadshot point-blank between the eyes]], BigBad and Bond villain fanboy Richmond Valentine nearly vomits, cringes away, and has to have someone else confirm that the target is actually dead. Not that he doesn't mind [[spoiler:wiping out most of humanity]], but he says that pulling the trigger himself is "horrible."
* Used ''Film/SevenSwords'': [[ActionGirl Yuanyin]] breaks down in tears, either from pain or remorse, after a life-or-death fight (implied to have been her first). [[YoungGun Han]] is also visibly shaken after his first kill. [[ProperLady Yufang]], on the other hand, has a complete [[FreakOut breakdown]] after killing [[spoiler: the traitor]] and witnessing him murder [[spoiler: every other adult in Martial Village, including her father]]. She's still hysterical hours after the fact, and attacks the rescue party when they show up.
* ''Film/BlackhawkDown'': Near the end of the film, one of the Rangers sights in on a Somali woman running to pick up a rifle dropped by a fallen militiaman. As soon as she picks it up to fire at the Rangers, he shoots her on the spot, and immediately vomits at what he had to do.
* ''Film/TheWorldIsNotEnough'': After shooting dead [[spoiler: Elektra King]], Bond leans over her body and strokes her hair, clearly shaken by what he's done. Pretty significant for a trained assassin.

* A variation exists in ''Literature/FoundationAndEmpire''. A woman shoots a friend in order to stop him from [[spoiler:revealing a vital secret to the enemy]]. Then she cries for the first time since her childhood.
* ''Franchise/StarWarsExpandedUniverse''
** When he's new to the Rebellion and to killing people, Luke Skywalker can handle shooting people down in his X-Wing or a firefight but has a lot of trouble after the fact when he kills someone at close range without giving them a chance to fight. ''Literature/ChoicesOfOne'' has him, after doing this, passionately think that doing this tears a fresh line across his heart every time, and he suspects it always will. ''Rebel Force'' heavily implies that he cries after unleashing [[GeneticEngineeringIsTheNewNuke monsters designed to take out infantry]] on unsuspecting Imperials.
** This is also in sharp contrast to the Jedi of the Old Republic, who considered themselves safest from the DarkSide by repressing ''all'' of their emotions, including remorse.
** Happens to [[VideoGame/DarkForcesSaga Kyle Katarn]], of all people, in the Soldier For the Empire audio drama. After making his first kill (A rebel soldier charging towards his Stormtrooper squad), he temporarily breaks down at the thought of killing another person, and has his squad's medic check the Rebel afterwards.
* Jerin in ''Literature/ABrothersPrice''; it's not stated if he cries, but he stands in utter shock and horror for several minutes. The novel has a StereotypeFlip of most gender roles; the much more violent woman he's escaping with winced earlier at exposing him to what she does and apologizes that he has to be there for her killing people. It's only the need to save her that got him to shoot.
** Cira is shocked herself a few minutes later when Jerin calmly uses the woman he's just killed as a literal 'dead woman brake' to bleed off steam from the boilers.
%% * Antoinette in ''Literature/ThePrisonerOfZenda''.
* This trope is referenced in a Series/TheManFromUNCLE novelization. Napoleon asks a female agent if she's ever killed anyone. She answers no and he says okay, this isn't the time to start 'The first time is very difficult'.
* Invoked in ''Discworld/TheTruth'' with a side of OOCIsSeriousBusiness. [[DaChief Vimes]] and [[IntrepidReporter William]] first realize that "these are stupid facts" and launch a more complete investigation when they notice the report that "Vetinari" stood over a stabbing victim in shock and said "I've killed him, I'm sorry." If the killing had been done by the real Vetinari and not [[spoiler: an actor hired by conspirators to discredit him]], there would be a complete ''lack'' of BleedEmAndWeep because the real Vetinari was a trained Assassin.

[[folder:Live Action TV]]
* ''Series/TheProfessionals'' episode 'Runner' ends when a female character, played by Barbara Kellerman, shoots a bad guy (who killed her boyfriend earlier in the show) just before he kills one of the CI5 agents. She weeps mascara tears.
* In an episode of ''Series/{{Sharpe}}'', a woman begins the episode by taking a boat from Ireland, riding on horseback across war-torn Europe up to the front lines, bullying her cousin Wellington into letting her stay at the camp, and beating everyone except Sharpe himself in a marksmanship contest. Then, when forced to shoot a man in self-defense, she bawls like a baby (and makes out with Sharpe). Furthermore, when Sharpe tries to tell her she "proved herself," she protests that women prove themselves when they have babies.
* In one episode of ''Series/CharliesAngels'', one of the Angels loses her memory. A group of men attempt to steal her bag; she fights them off, eventually finding a gun in her struggles and pulling it on them to convince them to back off. Although she doesn't shoot anyone, as soon as the danger is over she drops the gun and runs crying down the beach.
** Another episode depicts Kris Munroe shooting a bad guy and breaking down in tears as she states it's the first time she's ever shot anyone. Possibly due to ExecutiveMeddling, a line of dialogue is shoehorned into the episode stating that the guy actually survived. (Which is also a bit of TruthInTelevision as not everyone who gets shot dies.)
* Kimberly Bauer of ''Series/TwentyFour'' breaks out in tears when she shoots the man who attempted to kill her. More tears ensue when her father instructs her to shoot him ''again''.
* A ''Series/TargetWomen'' [[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdjk0sviTHo segment]] parodies an "intervention"-themed clothing commercial by having Sarah shoot a friend to stop her from buying the wrong outfit, freak out, accidentally shoot the other friend she brought with her and then casually step over to the rack and start browsing.
* Tessa breaks down in ''Series/{{Highlander}}'' after she takes out a serial killer with her car.
* ''Series/BreakingBad'': You don't get to see Jesse's reaction immediately after he shoots Gale, but he hesitates for a long time holding the gun and he's softly crying the entire time. The whole event shocks him so much that the resulting HeroicBSOD lasts for half the next season.
** ''Breaking Bad" might almost be This Trope: The Series.
*** Neither Walt nor Jesse handle the deaths of Emilio and Krazy-8 very well despite it being very much a "them or us" situation.
*** When it turns out Krazy-8 was only "mostly dead" and Walt is faced with the prospect of needing to finish the job in cold blood, he spends an entire episode trying to convince himself it's not necessary.
*** Even as late as the fifth season, Walt is visibly horrified after [[spoiler:shooting Mike]], though he gets over it.
* ''Series/AgentsOfSHIELD'' 1x17 has Fitz (a NonActionGuy usually afraid of combat) forced to fatally shoot a HYDRA agent in the back when it looks like the agent is about to get the drop on May. Having been reluctant to even pick up a real gun (as opposed to his tranquilizer gun, which he presumably lost while being searched earlier in the scene), Fitz quickly throws it back down after shooting the enemy agent, looking absolutely horrified. Of course, with everything that was going on [[TheWoobie the poor guy had already been in tears for most of the scene]], but he certainly doesn't get any happier after shooting someone.
* ''Series/{{The 100}}'' shows Bellamy, Finn, and Wick each being visibly shaken after killing someone for the first time. Lincoln suggests his first kill may have been this for him as well; he doesn't describe his immediate reaction to the event, but it's clearly had a traumatic effect on him.
* Series/{{Hannibal}} actively specializes in manipulating his patients into this, instilling subtle thoughts of killing in their minds before setting them upon one another like a cockfight. Most of the time, he sends the more overtly unstable person after the other, and in turn the victim of the attack goes far beyond what is considered self-defense thanks to Hannibal convincing them to push the boundaries of what is acceptable in such a situation. This still doesn't stop the victim from feeling remorse, though once again Hannibal's influence usually causes them to start going down the slippery slope and believe they're nothing more than murderers.
* ''Series/JessicaJones2015'': Hope Schlottman, on [[Creator/DavidTennant Kilgrave]]'s command, shoots and kills her parents in an elevator. Then breaks down wailing.
* ''Series/Daredevil2015'': Karen Page sheds a few tears from shock after shooting James Wesley to death with his own gun.
* Subtly done in ''Series/{{Chuck}}'': After his Intersect 2.0 upgrade, Chuck is a TechnicalPacifist who DoesNotLikeGuns. As a general rule he carries tranq guns instead of live firearms. However midway through the third season, he's in a situation where he has no choice but to shoot [[spoiler: Shaw]], landing two shots in his chest. For a moment Chuck stares in disbelief at the gun in his hands, however he's not given long to dwell on it because [[spoiler: Shaw]] [[TakingYouWithMe tries to pull Sarah over the bridge he's now falling over the side of with him]].
* In the ''Series/{{NCIS}}'' episode "Detour", Palmer pretty much has a nervous breakdown after killing the terrorist who was about two seconds away from killing Ducky. He needs to snap out of it ''fast'' when it turns out the guy was wearing a bulletproof vest and he didn't even hurt him.

[[folder:Video Games]]
* Lara does this in ''VideoGame/TombRaider2013'' after killing Vladimir. However, ItGetsEasier soon after, to her horror.
* ''VideoGame/{{Iji}}'': the main character apologizes for the first few kills.
* In ''[[VideoGame/DevilMayCry Devil May Cry 3: Dante's Awakening]]'', this happens in the intro of Mission 20. As [[spoiler: Arkham]] falls from Hell to the top of the Temen-ni-gru tower, he is approached by Lady. He tries to talk her out of killing him, but she goes ahead and shoots him dead. Then she stumbles back and starts [[CryLaughing laughing and crying]], in one of the [[{{TearJerker/DevilMayCry}} saddest]] moments of the game. She's killed entire armies of demons up to this point, but it's still a shock to kill [[spoiler:her father]].
-->''"I promised myself I wasn't going to cry..."''
* This is apparently what happens to Eddie in ''VideoGame/SilentHill2'', as his first appearance sees him copiously vomiting into a toilet with a corpse in the next room (and his SuspiciouslySpecificDenial as to what happened doesn't exactly help prove his innocence). Unfortunately, every subsequent meeting with him thereafter shows that he's quickly learned that ItGetsEasier... and ''[[AxCrazy fun]]''.
* In ''VideoGame/HotlineMiami2WrongNumber'', this is the EstablishingCharacterMoment for Evan Wright, the Writer. After a TheMafiya bouncer refuses to let him enter a building to see a contact, he beats the bouncer bloody... and then stops, realises what he's done, and frantically attempts CPR.
* In ''VideoGame/TalesOfTheAbyss'' this is [[TheHero Luke]]'s reaction when, in self-defence, he ends up killing his first [[WhatMeasureIsAMook human]] opponent. The anime shows his horror a bit better due to the format and better graphics. And, unlike most, ItGetsEasier does not apply for him and he's later noted to still have nightmares about killing human opponents late into the game. He even has unique after battle dialogue after a battle with human opponents.

[[folder:Web Original]]
* When [[TheHero Michael]] is knocked unconscious during the battle at the end of ''AudioPlay/WereAlive''[='=]s first season, [[DoesntLikeGuns Pegs]] is left defenseless when [[BlueOniRedOni Latch and Scratch]] come looking for them - or so you think, until she picks up Michael's SMG and kills Latch with it, leaving Scratch emotionally scarred (they ''were'' twins, after all). So far, Pegs is still being haunted by what she had to do that night to save Michael.